poems not completed..
Look where im at now in my life
but i dont do regrets or look twice
every decision i make is logical
every mistake i make is practical
and all the dudes i date are irrational
i got dreams but i never sleep
im daydreaming bout where i plan to be
but its not dreaming technically
cuz im awake during everything
NEXT
Do i ever come up in discussion
with the people who witnessed you let go of something perfect?
do they ever tell you you made a foolish mistake?
or do you never bring it up cuz its all criticism you cant take
i know you've thought twice about the choices you made
but if we had to do it all over i'd like to do it the same
so i could be available for the person who thinks im all worth it
love me for more than what im showing on the surface
thanks to you i got my guard up though
and you did teach me how to take control
hide my feelings that way im in full control of the situation
and i can monitor my emotions so my love isnt wasted
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Part of the list.
mmm im not just unhappy single. but you want someone there you know every once in awhile. i have never hated on what anyone else had because everything aint always peachy cream. realistically i know that if i was too super yern for something someone else had i'd get what i was asking for without really having any idea of what im truly asking for.
most of the time i find myself falling for someone because of their intellect... then their smile and then their sense of style. but im searching for someone with depth i dont know i truly believe i havent found that person yet.. and i honestly dont mind waiting for that person.
anywho i was watching basketball wives and shaunie wanted to know if shaq had slept with glorias sister.. gloria wanted her too talk to her sister about it and not her. they were angry with her whole "blood is blood" demeanor but i mean its true.. they look at her like she should speak up on her sisters behalf but i think gloria was right her sister should speak up on her sisters behalf.
hmmm yesterday i made a small attempt to see someone i've been feeling for awhile.. only for him to make no attempt at all. it just made me realize that im over being confused.. im over wanting for something to happen and the other person to be up and down. im over talking to someone everyday! because they make the effort to hit me up everyday only for them to choose someone over me when i start to show interest. im ready to be the exception.. but all i see is me pushing away people who may come along.. realistically what else am i supposed to do go through this continuous draining... sad... repetition? NOPE!
sad thing is im not a lovesick stalker who hops on anyone who show's interest
i see things for what they are.. deal with it if it hurts and move on
most of the guys im interested in make the attempt it takes alot for me to get up and go along with it..
i live the life of a broken hearted girl lowkey.
love is not for me
could be just right now
but whatever the time frame
today tomorrow next month.. NEXT YEAR still not gonna be for me.
most of the time i find myself falling for someone because of their intellect... then their smile and then their sense of style. but im searching for someone with depth i dont know i truly believe i havent found that person yet.. and i honestly dont mind waiting for that person.
anywho i was watching basketball wives and shaunie wanted to know if shaq had slept with glorias sister.. gloria wanted her too talk to her sister about it and not her. they were angry with her whole "blood is blood" demeanor but i mean its true.. they look at her like she should speak up on her sisters behalf but i think gloria was right her sister should speak up on her sisters behalf.
hmmm yesterday i made a small attempt to see someone i've been feeling for awhile.. only for him to make no attempt at all. it just made me realize that im over being confused.. im over wanting for something to happen and the other person to be up and down. im over talking to someone everyday! because they make the effort to hit me up everyday only for them to choose someone over me when i start to show interest. im ready to be the exception.. but all i see is me pushing away people who may come along.. realistically what else am i supposed to do go through this continuous draining... sad... repetition? NOPE!
sad thing is im not a lovesick stalker who hops on anyone who show's interest
i see things for what they are.. deal with it if it hurts and move on
most of the guys im interested in make the attempt it takes alot for me to get up and go along with it..
i live the life of a broken hearted girl lowkey.
love is not for me
could be just right now
but whatever the time frame
today tomorrow next month.. NEXT YEAR still not gonna be for me.
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