w.o.o.d

its safe to say
it never ment anything
will never mean anything
do you know what i really mean?
i understand when looking backwards
you miss whats in front of you
i dont understand why go back to the old
when you had something new
lead me on? nah i cant say that
but seeing you almost everyday
had me a little attached
detached cuz u decided to give her a second chance
what we could be? you never gave it a second glance
that i dont understand
you gave her the opportunity to hurt you twice
i didnt hurt you once
but im feeling the sting from her bite
this is life
and i swear it aint fair
and no matter how much i've been warned
i will never be prepared.
now a days though
i feel like were strangers
grown apart cuz friendship wasnt enough
no matter what i would always want us to be US
im so stuck
scared of the future
im feeling like a victim
and love is my abuser
afraid of going back
only to be hurt again
still got bruises and cuts
who knew love was violent
and he keeps saying
who know's what the future holds for us
like im supposed to hold on
while he's already given up
he swears we'll meet again then we can try again
but im just praying when that time comes i've found his replacement
who knew knocking on wood would be like throwing my heart against the pavement.
-diamora

haha the dude this poem was too last name was wood.. kinda that subliminal feel ya know :-)
lol anyway these are old feelings im just posting stuff i used to write... i gotta whole new outlook on life... guess you could say i got my mind right

intro...

this is for all the dudes that played me eat you heart out its chaaarrm.

I never thought to retaliate
but this constant repetition im starting to hate
guess kanye was right welcome to heart break
thats what i need a small break
a vacation from pain
and some time off heartache
i guess spending time with me
is the time of your life
till u realize maybe im not your type
leave me feeling like im only good enough to be the chick on the side
ima keep my head up
i refuse to cry
i just think sometimes i feel a little empty
could use some cuddle time and kiss on the forehead
i just wish some of yall would tell me it would lead to nothing before hand
and im hard headed
i refuse to believe
every dude i meet got tricks up his sleeve
i been single three years seen em come and go
and everytime one walks away i lose a little hope.
-diamora

FIREWORKS jan feb.. 2010

i could tell it wasnt love i just thought you'd mess wit me, i kept my wits about me luckily, what happened between us that night it always seems to trouble me, And you making it seem like it happened that way because of me, But I was curious and Ill never forget it, what an experience, You coulda been the one but it wasnt that serious, There was smoke in the air before, that was me clearing it, That felt good, all and all I learned a lesson from it though,You never see it coming you just get to see it go...

i think the person who reads this would know automatically im talking about them crazy.

Worst case scenario

this is a qoute from keke wyatt this song is amazing lol sad she only has ONE good song on the album smh its great actually but one out of what twelve? this is not gonna do.

"i know it aint right for me to be thinking about loving you i cant tell my heart how to be im daydreaming i cant stop thinking about you i close my eyes to be around you."
- keke wyatt

love.

cute love songs. well written also of course im all about lyrics.

never met guy so sweet
someone who knocks me off of my feet
i never thought that it could be until i met you baby
you never met a girl like me i only wanna make u happy
u never knew that you could be free until u met a girl like me
- Brandy Say you will

we were two lil people wrapped up in this big ol world
drifting round in space out of place just a boy n girl
then you took my hand and made me apart of you
and i looked in your heart and saw all my dreams come true
u did the impossible... u rescued my love
i had almost given up...
- mariah carey The impossible.

i think my heart my explode
cuz now i feel the weight of your love on me now
from my head down to my toes
and i cant handle nothing else
staring in the mirror at these clothes
and its funny they mean about as much as yesterday
something is calling me home
i can hear your voice and im not afraid
now im know im just a girl
tryna make my way through this life
now i feel bigger than the world
with your hand in mine.
- esmee denters bigger than the world

matt...

Sometimes i feel as if im kinda heartless or not sensitive enough
i see all these girls posts on my ex boyfriends wall about how much they miss him since he's passed things havent been the same. I JUST SMH.. like u writing on his facebook is not you missing him its for publicity why do people claim people after they have passed? that has always made me mad. yes some people have a reason to miss him some people were really close to him... maybe prolly only 2% i wouldnt dare keep writing about how much i miss him because when he was in the hospital i visted ONCE talked on the phone and kept in touch that was it.. but in all honesty i wasnt there like i could have been and im not gonna sit and act like i was... and im not gonna sit back and act like he was the love of my life.. he was my first sexual experience and to be honest that wasnt great.. he did make me see that men are selfish they only want one thing and no matter what they will leave you feeling like your not good enough. i havent been a relationship since him. and thats if you wanna count what we had has a relationship. he taught me that u cant trust ppl saying trust me. on another note he was a good friend when he wanted to be. and when we were together we shared things together that i prolly dont see myself sharing with someone else for a long time. do i still have a grudge... nah everyone is a learning experience. i do feel sad that he 's gone though he was young.. but in reality we all have to go one day.. he was a reminder that life can be taken away in the blink of an eye. thats that though ya know...

xoxo charm.

hmmm.. TELL em!

toni braxton killed this song for real!
Hands tied.

You're asking me if I
Know what real love feels like
If I ever loved anyone inside
You cant be serious
Cause I was the one giving all I had
I kept my promises all intact
For better or worse I honored that
I could show you all about love

Baby I can love you with my hands tied
I can please you with my hands tied
Everything you need is right here
It's just staring you in your face
Stop asking me if I'm ready
Cause this is just what I'll say
Cause I could love you
With my hands tied...

Don't ever question my love
I love hard despite the
Heartbreaks I made light of
You see I been around
I was the one tryna to patch it up
and I watch them say I've had enough
All I just keep thinking of
I could show you all about love

Baby I can love you with my hands tied
I can please you with my hands tied
Everything you need is right here
It's just staring you in your face
Stop asking me if I'm ready
Cause this is just what I'll say
Cause I could love you with my hands tied.

- toni braxton
GENIUS!

illustrating my feelings

i cant pretend that everythings all good
nope i cant say that everythings all bad





hmmm so one of my bestfriends broke up with her boyfriend.
do i think they will be back together?
yes
when? i dont know...
just i never figured they were perfect just didnt see them breaking up
makes me look at alot of other things differently
a reminder that no one is perfect.
or no couple.. i feel like every couple goes through something how would you know it was ment to be if you cant survive one storm?





on my end though.. i have alot of plans
i need order
i need a team
i need more yearly goals
and another source of income you know.
i think vanitydollhouse has potential to become something great





anywho i think too much
and deep down inside im missing someone
but at the same time i kno he isnt missing me.
and deep down i've accepted that and honestly dont care anymore
feeling like i'll find someone else
even if its another three years im sure it will be well worth the wait.

You hear but you dont listen.

I'm more than just an option
refuse to be forgotten
I took a chance with my heart
And I feel it taking over
I'm more than just a number
I doubt you'll find another
so every single summer
I'll be the one that you remember
its more than just a mission
you hear but you don't listen
You better pay attention
and get what you been missing

too many times Ive been wrong
I guess being right takes too long
I'm done waiting, there's nothing left to do
but give all I have to you and
I better find your loving
I better find your heart

this what ima do till its over

you ever notice if you listen to so far gone then play trey songz anticipation right after the mood is still the same?

The production is similar its calming.. trey songz and drake are doing more than making music... they take you to another place u aint even gotta be able to relate they make you feel them no matter the situation. i feel drake though and i love how he was able to make it by just being him self.

YOUR RIGHT THERE

Im so in love with this song.. it just makes me smile on the inside.. like i know the feeling he is talking about.. and its just a reminder of that.. havent felt like what he's saying in this song in a long time.. but i just love that this song brings me to a happy place. whom ever i dedicate this song too in the future is gonna be someone mighty mighty special :-)

Happy.

Sometimes people dont understand that you are NOT bitter, jealous, or envious when u can speak about ur hurt....u are Brave & Wise. - Julian Banks

Im just tryna be happy.

so this happened to me a couple of weeks ago semi sorta i can just relate to this video.. and on top of that i acted the same way she did... no point in holding a grudge my time will come. i just love everything this song means and stands for :-)

Best you never had.

i was so in love with you
there was nothing i could do
wouldn't give me the time of day

because i told you you'd live to regret it
and no i dont wanna make you feel bad
but when it comes to me you just wont get it
i'll be the best you never had
you put me through so many emotions
baby its your time for that.

you saw me as a friend
baby i dont want revenge
but if you must know the truth
what you didnt see in me
is what you will never be.

just making a prediction.

She looks so good in that white dress
at the far end of the aisle
standing where i should be standing
some other man on his face theirs a smile
i just walked in sat down silent
i stood outside for awhile
wondering why did i come here
face it you messed up and now she's with somebody else
and now all i can do is smile and fade into the background
such a lovely reception
i sit here sipping rose
then we catch eyes for a second
both of us smile then quickly look away
its funny you dont know what you got
till u dont got it no more
put down my glass grabbed the bottle
i throw it back and i shout she's with somebody else

sure hate to fade into the background.
- ne-yo

players only love you when their playing games

I've never had trust issues
if i don't trust you then i wont be with you.
I've never been an idiot.
but if we aren't in a committed relationship why would i question what you do when your not with me?
eeeeeh it might cross my mind. but i usually already know so asking really isnt neccassary.
Guys give it away though lol so i dont understand why women try and act blind to it.
If i make the decision to talk to you..hang with you.. kiss you.. do whatever with you WHEN ITS YOU AND ME.. and i know that with me you arent tryna take it to the next level. Then thats on me.. cant be mad when you find that one and cut me off..

BUT. when i decide to do those things and accept that we arent committed but am truly unaware that you are talking to someone else. smh thats something else. so be honest and let me know like "diamora you know im young im single there are other girls that i do the same things im doin with you.. but i do it with them when im not with you" will i accept this? No lol but keepin it real gets you brownie points.. and though im not alotta other females are..stop bein chickens and keep it 100

on a side note these past few weeks have had me thinking like.. its not worth it RIGHT NOW.
its not worth investing my feelings to be disappointed anymore. I been single and dating for THREE years.. there have been a few i thought he could be it.. there have been some NO!'s lol and there is always that one you cant shake.. but he shook you so you deal with it. Im so tired of being homegirl material to people i see as more than that. Like what in the world am i missing? then people say diamora dont go loooking! lol man on my mama i aint found no one i ended up being into. they FOUND me and im not even exadggerating.. one text me two weeks later and put in the time to come see me from victorville .. the other got my aim and decided to become close and hang wit me everyday.. and last but not least the one from my past found me on facebook "oh i still ball by the rec by your moms come through sometimes" random match but coulda been perfect.. yea i hate goin to sleep alone but i aint never settled for less than i want. and to top it off I DONT GO LOOKING..

freaking confusing.. so i kinda deleted every guy out my phone n just stopped talking to any new interests..unless it was business of course.. i feel like one of those "eff love" ppl but its more like im just protecting me.. it could just happen lol but judging by the past it could and it couldnt. ima be blind to any feelings that go beyond business or friendship.. some times it will be denial and hard but it will be worth it in the long run i feel it.


Lauryn hill till i passsss out.