if i don't trust you then i wont be with you.
I've never been an idiot.
but if we aren't in a committed relationship why would i question what you do when your not with me?
eeeeeh it might cross my mind. but i usually already know so asking really isnt neccassary.
Guys give it away though lol so i dont understand why women try and act blind to it.
If i make the decision to talk to you..hang with you.. kiss you.. do whatever with you WHEN ITS YOU AND ME.. and i know that with me you arent tryna take it to the next level. Then thats on me.. cant be mad when you find that one and cut me off..
BUT. when i decide to do those things and accept that we arent committed but am truly unaware that you are talking to someone else. smh thats something else. so be honest and let me know like "diamora you know im young im single there are other girls that i do the same things im doin with you.. but i do it with them when im not with you" will i accept this? No lol but keepin it real gets you brownie points.. and though im not alotta other females are..stop bein chickens and keep it 100
on a side note these past few weeks have had me thinking like.. its not worth it RIGHT NOW.
its not worth investing my feelings to be disappointed anymore. I been single and dating for THREE years.. there have been a few i thought he could be it.. there have been some NO!'s lol and there is always that one you cant shake.. but he shook you so you deal with it. Im so tired of being homegirl material to people i see as more than that. Like what in the world am i missing? then people say diamora dont go loooking! lol man on my mama i aint found no one i ended up being into. they FOUND me and im not even exadggerating.. one text me two weeks later and put in the time to come see me from victorville .. the other got my aim and decided to become close and hang wit me everyday.. and last but not least the one from my past found me on facebook "oh i still ball by the rec by your moms come through sometimes" random match but coulda been perfect.. yea i hate goin to sleep alone but i aint never settled for less than i want. and to top it off I DONT GO LOOKING..
freaking confusing.. so i kinda deleted every guy out my phone n just stopped talking to any new interests..unless it was business of course.. i feel like one of those "eff love" ppl but its more like im just protecting me.. it could just happen lol but judging by the past it could and it couldnt. ima be blind to any feelings that go beyond business or friendship.. some times it will be denial and hard but it will be worth it in the long run i feel it.
Lauryn hill till i passsss out.
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