Overcast

i guess that you will always be
the part of me that i look back upon
with saddened eyes and wonder why it ever had to be
i guess that you have always known
the love i had for you was strong
but like a potted plant
im just a woman who needed room to grow

now i find myself alone again
guess i'll be alright i just don't know when
i spend all my days in the back of my mind
someone tell me why my sun wont shine

you say goodbye and then proceed to give me all the reasons why
you couldn't realize the dreams i had for you and me
its been awhile since you've been gone
i guess apart of me still holding on
to yesterdays
and crazy things
like the way we used to be...

cuz i've picked up all the pieces
you left behind
and i understood the reasons
i still wonder why
and this overcast is crazy
i cant see the light
i've been longing for the warm rays of the sunshine
cuz see i used to want you
and i used to hold you
and i used to want to be everything that you were..
TO ME.


this is a song by levi stephens called overcast.. sometimes tears really come to my eyes after hearing this.. cuz one person comes to mind.. a good friend of mines.. if it were up to me we'd be more than that..we were more than that for a lil while.. you know how that goes.. i stopped talking to him. i couldnt stand just being friends.. i know that if i were to find out he was with someone else i wouldnt even be angry.. I'd feel much better knowing he's happy even if its not with me.

I keep hearing how my time will come. but im over all that.. i get made a fool out of when i stop to believe HE COULD CHANGE ME. yea the last person i thought that about.. placed me in that friends with benefits mode. which i didnt mind cuz i knew in the back of my mind who i REALLY wanted... he found someone who he figured matched better with though.. which i aint mind just wish i coulda got the heads up on the change.. Truth is im happy for him too. Everything happens for a reason i've learned to take that statement and not stress myself trying to find out what those reasons are.

My clothing line is coming together so nicely
i have to sit back and give myself a pat on the back
im so excited that i found something that i can incorporate all my talents into.

Im so thankful for my friends i've had them all forever and one of them is moving on to do bigger and greater things in his life.. i hope one day he will return but im so proud he's taking a big leap forward to better himself. Sydney you will be missed and you know this. cant wait to come visit :-)