i really gotta find that person who doesnt think im weird i mean i think im just ME.. cuz there is no such thing as NORMAL.. Normal is word used to describe people who lack imagination, who are afraid to do something because they are too worried about what other people think so they follow the "accepted" and stay neutral ... seeing how thats the case more times than not i'd much rather be "weird". i can tell you what i hate though.. i hate having a good memory... sigh.. i remember everything... and my brain always automatically connects the pieces... so dont ever tell me two diff stories when lying cuz i will KNOW! i dont always say anything i just keep that tucked away in my CANT TRUST WHAT THESE PEOPLE SAY file in the back of mind. lol (and thats so true) so im up late blogging cuz i cant sleep. which is usually the case most nights... i dont have a sleeping disorder or anything im just a night person..
hmmmm [random]
things i dont believe in
-people changing... sometimes people really do posses the power to learn and grow from their mistakes and you can tell... but most of the time people never change they hide their flaws and realize they need to be sneakier next time so they dont get caught -_-
-Wishing.. i could wish for a million dollars doesn't mean it will appear (point proven) PRAYER is key
-Family though i love my family I've seen family do some things that shouldn't be forgiven because they are blood... they can be forgiven but because they are family isnt a valid reason... if that was the case they wouldn't have done anything so hurtful and or deceitful
-Love at first site... lowkey wondering if love exists im thinking love is just tolerance maybe that will change im only 20
speaking of love lol
when i was younger i used to think i'd be married and have kids
i dont see that happening... i dont think i can be in a relationship... i dont know how to be in one.. the longest one i was in was just seems like it was wasted time... and anytime i felt someone was worthy of starting another one with they didnt feel the same... how people manage to find that one is a puzzle to me... i can never seem to find a mutual situation where u just know the other person feels the same way you do... but like i said im 20 even though at times i feel old because i grew up so fast i know i prolly havent even lived a quarter of my life (yes im going to live to see 100 ahahaha if u did the math) :-)
im done rambling ima continue to listen to jagged edge night night world.
Charm.
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